Days away from her second abortion, she wrote that getting the abortion is the "right decision for myself, my daughter, and this child." Praying for you! My boyfriend is full of regret and wishes he wouldnt have said hurtful things. I think Ill visit an abortion clinic to avail of a medical abortion service because its difficult for me to survive if I have a child. Jocelyn, I cant thank you enough for sharing your story. I want to start by saying that I am skeptical that it is a sincere post. I am curious as wel. If you do not live with your parents, but you live with a grandparent, or an adult aunt or uncle, the adult relative you live with may be told in place of your parents. Share Your Story Here. What makes us experts in Online Poetry Publishing? My husband has made this time incredibly difficult for me. I understand you completely I found out I was pregnant pretty early ( 2-3 weeks ) decided I was going to go through with the pregnancy after me & my boyfriend relationship changes drastically he started to become emotionally and mentally abuse. I look back at him as the door closes behind me and I feel alone, until I remember youre there with me. I never knew if I wanted kids or not or if Id make a good mother. but something I think people needed to read. I open it and see two pictures of you. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you.. All the what-ifs led me to deciding that the best decision for me would be to terminate. Im currently in the exact situation. Dont worry though youre not pregnant!. Eventually with some deep talks from my family I booked an appointment and decided it was best not to have the baby I had to have a surgical abortion at 16 weeks . I had an abortion back in 1999. I will terminate in 3 days. I do wish I wouldve had more support during this time, mainly because my husband shut down due to his circumstances, but it has gone to show me just how strong I am and how much stronger I can be. I aborted even though my heart ached and I loved it every day. We use protection and still Ive ended up pregnant once more. One abortion opponent testified that people in her life had . My heart is so crushed. Hes verbally abusive, Ive spent all my money on him, no savings, lots of debt he makes the money I just make very little. I am unable to have children, so I will never know what it feels like, but I share your pain through the experiences of others. You were my everything. Anger boils in me now and again over it. They are a group of loving people who have been in your position. I dont want an abortion but that seems to be the best option. Everyone had always said about decisions like this that you need to be 100% sure either way but I wasnt sure either way at all. This brought me to tears. Labor would begin, usually within 12 hours, and the baby would be expelled. I recently just had my second abortion in 9 months . Im sending love your way, dear one. Im struggling with this decision. What if I still had no money, no stable place to live? There are no other words. Love you lots!!! No baby should be murdered by its mother. ????? He is also younger than me and nowhere near ready for a child and even moving in with me makes him scared. The connection happened from day one. Wishing all loving thoughts to you. There are so many things I am looking forward to, and I can't wait to be held in your arms and taught by the very best mama I can think of! I found out I was pregnant the same day I was supposed to get an IUD inserted. I didnt want to do this. When your raised in foster care it is because there is virtually no one else willing or able to care for you as a child. Im maybe 3-5 weeks pregnant but already feel attached. If you can't take Hesitantly I got the pill, I was just a day before 10 weeks, I held my baby and cried until I couldnt. The dad and I literally talked about having another baby one day but we didnt know it would happen so fast. My boyfriend was completely supportive of me and even now when I talk about the baby he knows that it makes me feel better. It's just cruel." From the moment on, he has told me to get an abortion, that its not the time. I regret my decision so much and cannot put it into words. Three years later, I look back on that day as the most difficult, important, unforgettable, and un-regrettable moment of my life. The connection is like no other. I need to get a surgical abortion on Monday and he cant even decide if he wants to come and support me. I was able to get another teaching job back in our home state, and have been teaching for years. Starving, I told him. Just a few days before my 22nd birthday. I need advice from someone, anyone. I have a 5 year old and a 1 year old with my husband but prior to that I got pregnant with a guy who I was on and off hanging out with and I decided to do an abortion because I knew he would not be there for me to support me on my decision but to be honest with you I do regret having to abort it. It's me. No baby should be murdered by its mother. The following article is one I submitted back in March 2017. If you do it, please remember you are not alone and it does get better And remember (if you believe) God will forgive you. My boyfriend has two children ages 18 and 13. Fathers should never be bored of their children. I want to keep the baby but then i feel like maybe i should get an abortion and give myself this chance to truly start over and fresh and cut ties with him other than coparenting. It hurts the relationship with my husband, and we are about to be separated as we cannot communicate anymore. It would have been too early to know the sex for sure but when I think of her I feel her and I know she was my baby girl your not alone, whatever you feel, your not alone. I was clearly going to get my period. But its up to you. Sometimes I wish I still had my baby. I know my future would never have turned out as well as it had, had I not had the abortion :). I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. I want more than anything to be a mom. Please keep your baby. That exact day I started bleeding I went to the ER and they said I might miscarry again I told him and he is convinced I am going to lose the baby. The first question the nurse asks is, What was the first day of your last period?, and I burst into tears. I really care about him, but this all has put a serious strain on our relationship. I am sure I am going to be the I still wonder what if. I immediately was overcome with fear! But I begged her not to go, I pleaded at times crying on the phone. This was so emotional ? Your dad looks at me and then the tests before putting them down, one in my lap and the other in his, but it falls in between us how symbolic. I just recently started a new job and I want to progress. I cry at every baby shower/kids birthday party I go to, in secret of course. Its almost the same situation. It took almost 6 months and I delivered my poor child.. Published by Family Friend Poems March 2017 with permission of the author. I tell him I dont want an abortion, but nothing about this makes sense. How difficult this truly She wrote this piece to destigmatize abortion and to offer a story of strength and hope to women and men alike. I promise that the next time I see that little blue plus, the next time you are in the same reality as me, I will be ready for you. Carroll's mom was about the same age as . We chose to end our family after two children. I sat on the toilet and watched as my destiny-deciding urine diluted with water, coffee, and last nights wine crept across the screen. Except I really dont want kids so shell never get the chance to come back to me. I am so sad that I will never meet that child, but I also know that it would have been less than what we all deserved. Its so unfair that guys help in making the baby. How are you coping? I stared and I watched the second line darken and become more prominent. I hope to someday get to tell my child face to face that I love them and Im sorry and they deserved better. I have tried to persuade her to look at forums or see a psychiatrist to help her through the guilt but she doesnt want to be associated with the stigma attached with it. We have been having the same unprotected sex as we were while still together. I'm growing a little bit every day, This was with the same toxic individual that I got pregnant the first time with . Just like you, I too was in university. Did you end up keeping your baby ? Tears and snot are running down my face as I write this, I have 2 beautiful little girls after this and it hasnt got any better. I was its mother. I cant imagine what I would have done if I wasnt able to have an abortion. If you know you arent ready for this trust yourself. I dont know where to go or what to research for. All I can think about is that Ill no longer be able to turn to her when I feel like doing something that stupid teenagers do. I cried so bad in the clinic and during the procedure that I still have nightmares and flashbacks often. Also it will definitely be detrimental to my relationship with my husband. He ignores me when Im upset and just goes to bed with that knowledge. My decision to have an abortion was a major fork in the road of my life. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. i struggle deeply with wanting to try again. Made the biggest mistake of my life 4 yrs ago. Im broken over this. but no one wants that for me. My sister just found out she is pregnant and I congratulated her on the phone. And make you scream and shout, I have never cried to hard in my life. I loved you, my first, my only." The afternoon I found out I was pregnant with you was just like any other day waiting for my period: I was late. Your situation is mine. 36 years old and its looking like I wont get another chance. I knew that if I went in for an ultrasound and saw features on that monitor.. there was no way I could go through with it. At 18 weeks, April and her husband found out that their baby had lethal skeletal dysplasia. Immediately after I felt relief that I was not constantly nauseous and I could eat again. I miss my baby every minute of every day. Top human rights organizations are calling on the United Nations to intervene over the destruction of abortion rights in the US.. Shes only known her boyfriend for 3 months and now they are contemplating a forever type of future together to raise this child. I have to go through a second one and I dont know what to do. Im 9 weeks pregnant. And the joy of playing with my friends. ??. I know what I will do and why I feel it is the best choice I can make, but I will never forget this little tiny creature that has visited me and wanted so much to be my family, as I so wanted to be hers/his. Now, Im regretting every single day of my life. In his remarks before Congress, Dr. Levatino describes in gruesome detail the procedure of killing a 24-week-old unborn baby. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation We named you to help us grieve for you By anonymous on 19/11/2013 surgical abortion abortion 18 weeks Firstly I need to tell you that me & your daddy have decided to name you. I love him so much it hurts I cant imagine my life without him, he filled a hole I didnt know I had. I so badly want another baby, but I got pregnant by the wrong man at the wrong time. I told my mom who was not shocked and she said we should schedule it for the next day. **** Truth is ive been crying my eyes out i am on birth control always on time with my pills. My wife had an abortion almost 20 years ago and has regretted every day since. Your dad offers to drive me, but I want to listen to music on my headphones. Maybe you're worried about money or becoming a mother or just getting through tomorrow. Well, I made it out alive. I support your decision and Im here no matter what. In the moment I feel I should be appreciative, but for the first time, I feel angry about my body, my choice. Cant, wont someone just tell me what to do?! The film is based on a story called "A Letter from an Aborted Child," which had been used for nearly 10 years by Father Stephen Lesniewski to show women in a time of indecision. She is a very strong woman but this is killing her slowly and I dont know how to help. I pray for you, and your baby. But its only 5 weeks so its nothing more then a pack of cells still, right? I was pretty much pressured to become pregnant by my boyfriend at the time (now very ex). Guess what? We dont say any words, but our embraces tell each other that we did the right thing. Ruffalo opened up about his own mother's experience with having an abortion . I then found out he was cheating on me big time it was scary my first thought was omg I cant have this monsters baby but I still carried on with the pregnancy a little unsure but over time he got more abusive, still treating me badly he started saying get rid of the baby idc . I dont want you to go through thisit never does go away. The emotions you displayed in this article made me cry because it is exactly how I feel. I am not waiting for my appointment in about 10 days for now. Sometimes I still feel her, I pray that shes come back. And He chose me to teach you about LOVE! I feel so torn apart. I have so much pain and hurt in my heart. im so lost on how to proceed. I had an abortion past the point of having the pill so had to have the surgery, It was the most painful time of my life physically and emotionally and I never expected it would continue to haunt me. The abortion debate has been going on for ages. Thats the last burrito hell ever order without any major care in the world. It ruins our relationship badly as we are both regretting the biggest mistake we made in our lives. He doesnt want to start over and says that we are too old. I love this man but i dont want a baby now and i feel the worst human being in this world for thinking that way. I wish I wouldve bought her plan b or made sure she was taking her birth control but those options are completely out of reach now. Again, I sleep in the same room as your dad that night, and when my alarm goes off, I get ready to take the bus to work. When I started getting very nauseous all the time my Mom said I was definitely pregnant and we went to the gynecologist who gave me an ultrasound and said I was pregnant. Struggling with the decision I made. And while sometimes they are not always as sensitive to the subject as Id like (not on purpose) it feels so relieving to tell someone. I have an appointment at planned Parenthood in 6 days and a doctors appointment tomorrow. Massachusetts Democrat told to resign after abortion remarks leave parents irate. I got an abortion 6 days ago. I'm just a tiny someone, I got pregnant from one night with a guy that I went on a few dates with. I pray God gives me another chance and send him back to me one day. I didnt know you, but I loved you. I made the wrong choice. I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. I know that deep down hes right but its tearing me apart. Except for some personal references her letter is reproduced in full. I wish I could have kept you, but I know our lives wouldnt have been what you deserve. Unfortunately my health started to take a turn for the worse. Im 11 weeks pregnant and Ive been dating a man for six months, I recently found out he is married but trying to get a divorce now, and hes been sleeping with her even when he knew I was pregnant. I work a half day, then your dad picks me up and we drive to Planned Parenthood. Constant regret and pain . I had abortion almost 4 years ago and it still affects me greatly. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. Im very open about discussing this, but its been difficult. He estimates that over 500 babies have been saved because of his efforts in utilizing the aforementioned piece. This apparently isnt convincing enough, and he asks if Ive taken any more havent I considered it could be a false positive? But I dont want an abortion.. its heartbreaking ? I got into a relationship with the man I grew up with and within 8 months I became pregnant with our first child. I cant quit my job, but I cant afford 2 in daycare either. Xoxo , AUSTRALIA, My boyfriend does not understand either. I just dont know what to do!!! I want two more children. She told me she was flattered but nothing could stop her from the abortion. I cried every day leading up to me making a decision, and I set the appointment for the very next day after I decided so that I would not have much time to change my mind. Xx. I was overjoyed but crushed the next day after he told me we werent ready and that I should get rid of it. If it makes you feel any better, abortion is highly unlikely to affect your future fertility equally though Im missing my baby a lot. I feel that too I was once pregnant while I was doing matric 2016 I was confused and lonely because I did not know what to do by that time but I found myself lost then I decided to do abortion sometimes it hunt me to a point where I cant think straight but I had to forgive myself for that because I did the right choice for myself. I too feel like I will regret it if I do this, Our family was complete. I wish I had made the even more difficult decision and been able to hold him and tell him how much I love him. I feel like Im losing either way; if I get an abortion, Ill most likely regret it, and if I dont, Ill struggle as a single mother. I am 6 weeks and already feeling flutters and I feel like I will never get past be this. Published by Family Friend Poems November 2008 with permission of the author. I am in the middle of mine as I type this. Abortions do not occur in this time period, so the phrase is contradictory. I already felt so attached. I never talked to people about it after. I found out I was pregnant today after being a few days late on my period Im lost!!!!! And an angel to look after you, too. The Baby Must Be. As a pro-life advocate, I've written and submitted many articles pertaining to abortion to our local newspaper. I love this story. We don't need to live in a big fancy house, STOP! I now have learnt something new about myself i will absolutely love to be a mother one day. He promised me we would be ready later and I believed him. We started trying, but didnt expect it to come so soon. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. Hi Sarah, Ive just had a baby (two weeks ago) at 40, I do feel age is but a number. Thank you so much for this. However I was so sick I could barely make it to class and I was on the verge of going to the hospital for dehydration. This broke him completely when I got the abortion done. My boyfriend was with me when I took the test. I recently experienced my first pregnancy, at 19 years of age and with four years of nursing school ahead of me. Even though I knew none of the other ladies who were there for the same reason I felt like I was not going through it alone. Im Ill never be sure if I made the right decision, but Im financially incompetent right now. The clinic I went to was great! Ive never thought Id be in this position and feel so weak and lost. I regret my decision every day. I didnt want anyone in the world to have my baby, I didnt want the guy that knocked me up to have my baby and I also felt a little pushed by his mother to have the abortion so instead of keeping him or her for myself I killed my baby. All of this is to saymom, you have a child, it's me. My and my husband have been diagnosed with infertility. I n 1967, when Governor Ronald Reagan made California the third state in the union to liberalize its abortion laws, his hesitancy about doing so was clear from the start . Would the Republican's bill force that teenager to. Id give anything to see my baby smile. Ive been employed in my feild for the past 4 years (student hires are highly sought in this feild). She gave her baby girl up for adoption, and now that baby is an adult. A few days later I had a surgical abortion. But I already feel connected and cry so hard every time I think of letting it go. Every night I went to bed, I cried. Couldnt take my meds or prenatals because the baby threw up everything. American liberals are debating the merits of "after birth abortion." On 29 July 2015, the unreliable web site Conservative Post published an article titled "Liberals Debate . But why was this pregnancy right now? It cant be easy and its hurtful for the man youre suppose to be with to embed abortion in your head after telling you, you two could try again. I would give anything to have my baby back. I want to be respectful and listen to people who have been through the same as me. I was accepted into a Masters program the day before. And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. The first line showed up dark pink as it always did, and then, suddenly, a faint second pink line emerged. An Ohio lawmaker proposing a near-total abortion ban was given a hypothetical: A 13-year-old girl is raped and becomes pregnant as a result. I know it not quite the same but its just how I feel. In South Africa, 85 000 abortions were induced in the year 2010 according to abort97.co.za. He told me that if I abort this baby we can plan a life together later he promises. We chose 3 yrs ago to decide to be Childfree. I couldnt talk to him about keeping it because he would panic and and say it wasnt plausible anytime I showed attachment. I want to help the conversation start on a different platform and educate. All the best to you <3. I pray for all of you. I want this baby, but I know financially we wouldnt be able to afford it.
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